Nothing is as powerful as an idea who's time has come. The idea which I am talking about is India. It means different thing for people. For me its my identity, I am an Indian. Nothing else matters. India runs in my blood. India beats in my heart. India is the pigment of my skin colour. India is the tone of my voice. India is the vision of my eyes. India is the shrill of my laughter.
Its been a subject of constant deliberation for a long time. I have donated the better part of my life to explore the idea of India n still doing so. Each man is born to perform a mission in life, but the nitty-gritty of the rat race takes better of ones motivation for the real job. But if we look inwards, we can always find that flame still burning inside.
Each day of my life is a struggle to find my real mission. Its very frustrating because life has many questions that need to be answered but my tryst with the material world leaves no time for introspection. My soul is decaying n I don't know how to prevent it. It feels like I am standing in the middle of civilization observing the inadequacies happening around but bound by a surreal force inside of me.
The only hope left for me in this life is the path of sacrifice. I have given up my dreams, my ideals for this material life but to no avail, I feel even more helpless than I was before treading this path. The glitter of gold had the better of me but the price was too high. I can continue on this path for eternity with the comforts and pleasures of paradise, but what pleasure is greater than the spirit of sacrifice? To live a day with dignity n courage is worth a thousand lives without. The spirit of self expression is unstoppable. I want to live a life of meaning before I slip into oblivion.